"Hi, I'm a Jesus freak."
“The Lord is my strength and my shield;
My heart trusts in Him, and I am helped;
Therefore my heart exhaults,
And with my song I shall thank Him.”
Psalm 28:7
I am religious. Though I don’t walk around displaying it to the world, nor do I attempt to shove religion down you’re throat, I am religious. You’ve known that since before the start. I find comfort in Christ when I am suffering. I find comfort in the belief that those I love will one day end up in a greater place, right along with those i’ve already lost. I find comfort in having someone to always talk to when I feel i’ve been abandoned by the rest of the world. You’ve been aware of my beliefs since before the start. You chose to continue on forming a relationship with me, despite having disagreements in our beliefs. I don’t mind that you don’t have the same beliefs as me. In fact, I don’t mind you thinking me foolish. But you have NO right to challenge my beliefs, or verbalize to me how “stupid” you think my beliefs are. I have not once asked you to even open a bible, none the less have I attempted to ”force my religion onto you.” You’ve been to church with me once, by your own choice. And you’ve told me that if I ever want you to come along, all I have to do is ask. You’re parents really wanted to come to church with you and I on a Saturday night and even made the plans to drive up here. My faith is something very important to me and I was so excited to get to share that with your parents. But at the last minute you made up a stupid excuse to your parents as to why our plans suddenly wouldn’t work out. Not because there was any issue, but because YOU didn’t feel like going. Then on top of those stupid little things you do, you have the decency to challenge me in what I believe. “I believe that if I just off a bridge i’ll walk on water. Doesn’t mean it’ll happen. Religion is stupid. How can you believe something that you have no proof of even existing? Do you talk to God? Does he talk back? Where’s your proof that he even exists? How do you know that when you die, you just die and nothing happens? Christianity is so flawed, you’re stupid to believe it that.” stupid this, stupid that, stupid stupid stupid.That’s all I ever hear from you is how my beliefs aren’t logical. I believe what I believe, and I’m not gonna change that based on any criticism you have. So leave me alone about it already! Yes, Hannah and I are planning to go see a worship band in April together. Let me guess, how stupid? Never would have seen that one coming. But then when I joke around about you coming along you tell me that I should stop trying to force religion on you?! When have I EVER tried to force any belief on you. Never do I tell you that what I believe is right or better then any other religions. Never do I tell you that I’m in any way superior and you should be the same. I respect that our beliefs differ and I just wish you would too. My faith is the one thing that has stayed true to me through so many hard times and for you to disrespect that really really hurts me more then you know. Yeah, I’m a JESUS FREAK AND PROUD OF IT. I’ll scream it at the top of my lungs at any time of any day. All the doubts i’ve ever had have never broken me down and you won’t either. So do me a favor, and stop trying. Don’t tell me you’ll go to church with me then turn it around and say I’m a religion pusher when I ask you to tag along. Don’t lead me to believe I get to share a huge part of myself with your family, only to cancel it all at the last minute because you can’t take an hour out of your night for me to praise my God. I support you in every way I can. Sometimes, I wish I didn’t feel so one-sided.
