You would die to forget, I will live to remind you

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July 2010

ALEX WONG I ABSOLUTELY FUCKING LOVE YOU!!

I am in awe. I cannot believe you just pulled that off. omgomgomgggg

June 2010

“Do you know what it’s like to love someone so much, that you can’t see yourself...”

– Jodi Picoult, The Pact (via ransombookquotes) (via olivejuicetoo)

Let the naked escapade begin..

I love you too. Alotalot.

Sleep time (I hope)? I’m the only one awake and the loneliness is starting to creep up on me. I need to make another attempt to fall asleep. I think tomorrow will be a good day.

“Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything...”

“We’re never so vulnerable than when we trust someone - but paradoxically,...”

– Walter Anderson

I want to show you the world you could have if you...

Wisconsin welcomes you!

I lied about posting earlier because I ended up driving the two hours instead of riding through them. The “rule” that has been enforced is that we cannot have our phones during our girl’s week wissy trip. I will have my phone at 8:30PM until I wake in the morning. But during the day, it’s no phone for Ellen :/ I might post a little bit at nighttime but my 30 day photo...

I'm a day behind on my photo challenge :/

I’ve got a couple hours of a car ride tonight so I’ll catch up then.

You make it sound so easy to be alive

but tell me how am i supposed seize this day, when everything inside me has died?

Free chips and guac?!

Mama B got a chipotle coupon in the mail and so kindly passed it on to me :) deffff hitting that up for lunch today! (with miss @beccacon?)

Piranhaftw started following you, Emily-loves...

Evening ladies, thanks for the follow :) if you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?

rhymeswithnash started following you

Hey! I’m Ellen :) thanks for the follow. Tell me something interesting about yourself!

I have to move home. Staying here is only going to...

Every minute seems to be a constant battle against the lonliness, the emptiness, the hollowness, and that void I cant seem to ever fill. It’s getting harder and harder to fight. Being alone so much isn’t good for me right now. I know that staying here will be the death of me.

I can't do this.

I can’t handle another night of being so alone. I don’t even know what to do with myself anymore. I don’t know what to do with myself now. I can’t do this.

Those boys, they aren’t you. The kisses, they aren’t between us. That slight bit of joy, it doesn’t even begin to compare to any of the happiness you have ever given me. Though I try not to, I think of you the whole entire time. My body aches for you. I try to fill the void with something or someone. But nothing and nobody compares. Nothing and nobody ever will.

sex is just sex is a mindset that pretty much...

vicexmillie: jshfgkdshgjkhdfg amen, sista’

Disney World photo captures couple together 15... →

justcallme-bear: (via fuckyeahhappy) this is crazy cute<3

Hot wings nd tits

I’ll be a dr. lawyer teacher

30 day photo challenge.

Day 01 - A picture of yourself Day 02 - A picture of what you wore today Day 03 - A picture of what you did today Day 04 - A picture of where you went today Day 05 - A picture of your morning Day 06 - A picture that inspires you Day 07 - A picture that makes you cry Day 08 - A picture of yourself Day 09 - A picture of what you had for lunch Day 10 - A picture of what you like to do Day 11 - A...

I'm feeling really good right now :D

ORGANIZED A TUMBLR MEETUP!

because the next chicago one is 21+ and therefore discludes me. Friday, July 16th @ noon. ALL AGES! plan to meet outside Navy Pier, get some food, and head to a nearby beach! Should be tons of fun and all of you chicago tumblrs should plan to be there. REBLOG REBLOG REBLOG!!

amandapleeasee-deactivated20110 asked: Hey Ellen,

My friend and I are both underage as well, so we can't go to the Chicago Tumblr meetup thing at the bar. They MIGHT let us in since it'll be the middle of the day, but I'm not sure. Maybe we can get all the underage people together before the end of August (everyone will probably be leaving for school around that time). What do you think? :)

I laid awake re-memorizing your face. Though nothing appeared to have changed, it’d been so long since I had been able to do that. To not drift back asleep was a strenuous battle. Despite how exhausted I was, sleep was the last thing I wanted. I wasn’t exactly sure yet if I was dreaming or not. If I was, I didn’t want to wake up. If I wasn’t, I didn’t want to fall...

Anonymous asked: You're beautiful. I hope your loneliness leaves you. You deserve to always smile. <3
http://operationbeautiful.com/

I can't face another night alone like this.

I can’t recall ever in my life feeling as lonely as I have lately.

I need to feel in control of something. anything.

I feel like I have no control over anything anymore. My future, my surroundings, my emotions.. basically anything. I’ve decided that by losing weight (healthfully!) I will actually feel in control of something in my life. I need that right now. SW-127 HW-148 LW-112 CW-127(?) GW1-122 by 7/10 This should give my mind something to focus on as well. I can use working out and eating...

I am not strong enough to make it through.

“Going Back to the corner where I first saw...

Looking back at our relationship, I’ve tried to pinpoint what exactly it is that I miss so much. I’m trying to figure out what I continue to hang onto- what I can’t seem to ever want to let go of. There are so many things about you that I love. I love the way you laugh, I love the way you smile. I love the way you make me laugh and smile. I love going grocery shopping with you...

Cannible the Musical

I’m still alive but I’m barely breathing Just prayin’ to a god that I don’t believe in Cause I’ve got time while he’s got freedom And when a heart breaks no it don’t break even His best days will be some of my worst He finally met a girl that’s gonna put him first While I’m wide awake he’s no trouble sleeping Cause when a heart breaks no it...

What am I supposed to do, when the best part of me was always you? What am I supposed to say, when I’m all choked up and you’re okay? I’m falling to pieces I’m falling to pieces

nickgerber asked: Next time we definitely will! I doubt there would be any problem if you happened to be strolling by, however. Plus, and I'm not going to actually ask them lest I get an answer I don't like, it does serve food, so... if you were to come and order a fish taco, no booze, I doubt there would be problems. Ah well, either way, next time I organize one I'll be sure to include unders.